So Much Love

One of my biggest fears about having a second kid was that I didn't know if I could love Baby E as much as I love A. He is my whole world and tons of fun. He makes my heart so full of love—and I was afraid there wasn't enough room in my heart to love my baby girl as much as I love my little man.

It was amazing to me that as soon as I held her in my arms at the hospital, I felt so much love for her. And I felt all that love so immediately. I guess my itty bitty heart grew twice its size that day because now both of these little ones are my whole world and my heart is stuffed clear full of love.

Not only has my heart grown full of love for Baby E, but my love for A has also grown even more as I've watched him with his sister. Even though he's struggling to adjust to life with a new sibling, he has such a sweet concern for her. He says "uh oh!" and rushes to her side any time she cries or needs something.

My love for A has also deepened as I understand even more how he views our relationship. I have felt that his relationship with his dad was the special one because the two of them have so much fun together and A always gets so excited anytime M walks in the door. It wasn't until I saw how much A was struggling to cope when I would snuggle and spend time with Baby E that I realized how much my little A loves his mommy—even when he has his dad there too. It just really confirmed to me how important it is for children to have BOTH a mom and a dad.

So all in all, bringing a new baby home from the hospital has taught me so much about love and our capabilities to feel more love than we ever knew was possible.